Dear Someone, [ moving on. ]

It's funny how people say the word "move on" as a simple thing. how some of them thought moving on was easy. To be very honest, it's not. 

MOVE ON (or move someone on)

phrasal verb of move

1. 1.

   go or cause to leave somewhere, especially because one is causing an obstruction.

that's the definition of moving on in Google. And people who didn't experience this kind of thing won't know the feeling.

How much hurt, pain, agony, anguish & torment that person is having so they can just move on.

people would sometimes think moving on is easy. But no. I big, gigantic NO. N.O. 

It's not. 

Moving on from the past. from the people who've been a big part of your life. a person who've made you happy.

Seeing him laughing, it's make my heart flutter. 
Seeing him looking back at me makes my icy heart melt. 
Seeing him being happy, and it's because of me. ofc that's what he says.

We've build a bridge, that time it feels like there's nothing wrong. We've stayed strong. but the structure of our bridge didn't hold that long. We've fall apart. We left a small remark.


It's hurt. really. but just like the others have said. You have to move on. You can't stay miserable. 

He was flipping our chapter. The scriptures that we both have been scribbling about this past few months. The pages that I've been re-reading. He's moving on. while I'm here, mourning.

I can't stay in the pages that wouldn't be back. I can't stay in days that will be soon forgotten, by him. I can't stay with all our promises and vows. I want to, but i can't. 

Should I move on? or should i just keep chasing pavements? should I?

I don't know. But I hope I can find someone worth living for, again.


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