Dear Someone, [ moving on. ]

It's funny how people say the word "move on" as a simple thing. how some of them thought moving on was easy. To be very honest, it's not. 

MOVE ON (or move someone on)

phrasal verb of move

1. 1.

   go or cause to leave somewhere, especially because one is causing an obstruction.

that's the definition of moving on in Google. And people who didn't experience this kind of thing won't know the feeling.

How much hurt, pain, agony, anguish & torment that person is having so they can just move on.

people would sometimes think moving on is easy. But no. I big, gigantic NO. N.O. 

It's not. 

Moving on from the past. from the people who've been a big part of your life. a person who've made you happy.

Seeing him laughing, it's make my heart flutter. 
Seeing him looking back at me makes my icy heart melt. 
Seeing him being happy, and it's because of me. ofc that's what he says.

We've build a bridge, that time it feels like there's nothing wrong. We've stayed strong. but the structure of our bridge didn't hold that long. We've fall apart. We left a small remark.


It's hurt. really. but just like the others have said. You have to move on. You can't stay miserable. 

He was flipping our chapter. The scriptures that we both have been scribbling about this past few months. The pages that I've been re-reading. He's moving on. while I'm here, mourning.

I can't stay in the pages that wouldn't be back. I can't stay in days that will be soon forgotten, by him. I can't stay with all our promises and vows. I want to, but i can't. 

Should I move on? or should i just keep chasing pavements? should I?

I don't know. But I hope I can find someone worth living for, again.


--goes offline--

Dear Someone, [ heartbreak ]

Dear Someone,

I love you. I love you from sunset till' sundown. I love you since the beginning and the end. I love you for everything you are, and for everything you're not. I love you, but I also have to let you go.

I know, some people would think that I'm being lunatic and impulsive, for saying a statement that would hurt me, especially you. The relationship that the two of us had been building was a wreck, and it's because of me, it's because I gave up. I give up on us, i give on you. and in that moment, i also give up on myself.

Before I broke up with you, I've been thinking about things. Possibilities and wonders. the what if's and should I's. It was driving me crazy, My head is turning, Instead of keeping my poise and keep myself calm, I looked for you, I called you. 3x in a row. But you didn't answer back, by that I've finally made my choice.

The words that slip out of my mouth, "I'm done" it didn't just break your heart, it also break mines. How self-centered would I be, that's my conscience telling me. How crazy would I become, that's my heart, shouting in my whole body system and turnin' my whole senses to nothing. But that time, i didn't care. I didn't care at all. It's because I'm tired, not of you, but I'm tired of life. Of all bull craps and bullshit. I've promised that I would never give up one us, but I goes, promises are really made to be broken, right?

You were my strength, yet i thought that you already give up on me, and that pushed me to the limit to broke up with you. It pushed me to the limit that I also have to give up on myself.

Things went like a blast. Seeing you walking and flipping the chapter to move on. While the bitch here it still miserable, still broke. Still incomplete and broken into pieces.

Things can't be the same without you. Just because the sun can still set, and the moon will still rise in night time, doesn't mean that my world would be okay. It won't. and It's because you're not the part of it anymore, that's what people think. But you're still part of it, and that's the thing. Because you're still part of my life yet I wasn't part of yours.

I maybe a bitch for leaving you behind but please remember that I always love you. I always do. I want to take you back, but It would be a selfish act. I want you to be happy, maybe not in my arms, but in someone.

Thank you for the love, for your precious time, for you effort that you exert just to talk to me. It means a lot. I'm thankful to have you. please keep that in mind. 143.

Love,
Gail

xxGoes Offline 

[] jiyeon park []

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just got bored and did this. haha, i know i'm not as pro but i hoped you like it /giggles; haha. she's one om my ub in kpop industry~ she's just to gorgeous /insert: twinkling eyes;
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Dear jiyeon, 

kyah! yeppeuda eonnie. you're so talented, gorgeous, kyeopta. hahaha. hope that T-ara will visit here in the Phil. hwaitting!~  and btw! Hope that You'll have a blast this 2016!

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                           suzyaxx 


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                         reason why
                         i breath every-
                         day, he's the 
                         reason why i
                         lived. but he is
                         also the reason
                         why my heart is
                         broken into pieces.     »

                                 ☂

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